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May. 5th, 2005 @ 09:18 pm Breakdown
Lemon status: MY EYE WAS EATEN BY SEAGULLS
Funkay Beats: Forces of Nature
Not a mental one, but more of a MC Hammer breakdown. Or a simple synopsis of the last month. Where to start?

My hair looks awesome now, far better than it's been in ages. Like a pheonix from the ashes, it returns from the grave with blinding beauty. Or something like that.

I got myself a girlfriend, too. It ranks higher than a cool haircut, but I'm trying to do this chronologically. Of course, then it'd be prom date THEN girlfriend, but whatever. Yeah, her name is Christina and I met her at my friend Nicci's birthday party in Febuary. I didn't see her again till Nicci's boyfriend Travis' birthday party at the end of Spring Break. Because Christina graduated early, she didn't get to go to prom, so Nicci told her to ask me, which she did, and I said yes, and so I got a prom date. That in and of itself came as a total shock. Me, getting a prom date. I blame the hair.

So we started really talking, and I saw her more and more often, and we eventually started dating. It took me 18 long, lonely years but it paid off, tenfold. Tuesday I took her to Chili's, and tomorrow we go on a double date with Nicci and Travis to the dollar theater. So there's that.

And I got myself a $8 top hat for prom, because I'm both to cool for school and as cheap as a miser.

I stopped talking to Max completely and utterly, and her close friends simply to avoid her. No offense to her friends (most of them), but I just don't want to risk talking to her ever again. I believe I hate her more than I thought I could, and I feel bad for it. But she was a bane to happiness, a harbringer of depression, and played every drama queen card to get attention. By disassociating with her, I feel infinitly better.

I went to Dallas for a choir field trip. High school drama tally: 1 count of fingering on the charter bus, 1 count of making out on the charter bus, 10-some counts of raunchy clothes, 1 count of drunken supervisor.

And I just got back from getting a $500 scholorship from my homeowner's association. Go edumacation.

That's all for now, tune in later when I get around to making a creative post or something. A witty commentary on the fast food industry, perhaps, or a bitting post that attacks someone that utilizes both bold AND underlined words. Oh well. Till we meet again, internent.
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May. 5th, 2005 @ 04:48 pm I'm a moron!!!

My Unitarian Jihad Name is: Brother Shotgun of Loving Kindness.


Get yours.

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Apr. 14th, 2005 @ 11:16 pm Yeah
Funkay Beats: Nothing. Nothing at all
Simple and sweet:

My bangs have gotten unruly as of late, and instead of doing something reasonable, like going to a barber, I take some scissors to them. Bad idea, to say the least. I looked like Rocky Horror. Then, because I'm white trash, I had my mom try to make it look decent. She goes and takes a nice, sizable chunk out of one side of the back of my head before realizing she has no idea what she's doing. So, in short, I don't go to school tomorrow before I go to the barber's.

Also, I wrote two essays today, both for the same scholorship. I hate essays because a) my mom always checks what I write and changes things to fit her image and b) I hate her image. So the first essay I wrote I liked. It was short and sweet, listed off community service and awards and gave the truth, not bullcrap about civic duty. That wasn't good enough, and got me a twenty minute yell fest. This is a good time to note that I will never yell at my kids, because it doesn't do anything worthwhile. So I got my stuff around, went upstairs, and an hour later, or about fifteen minutes ago, come back with a essay full of lies and shit and I hate it but it's what mom wants to see. Mom, who's asleep on the couch in front of QVC. I cannot wait for college.

Note: This whole thing made my mom sound like a horrible person, which she's not. She's irratible and loud, but she can be nice and caring too (I hope). I'm cranky and I should be asleep and I'm worried about money and getting a job and prom and my calculus grade and people and my hair and I wish I saw Christina more and you know what none of this matters because I'm an infintesimal speck on a comsic spectrum and tomorrow I won't care about a thing and everything resolves itself in the end, even if that end is death. And that's all folks.
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Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 10:36 pm Story time
Lemon status: Dial "Y" For Yum
Funkay Beats: Stars - Don't Be Afraid to Sing
Feeling creative )---

So here's my life in a nutshell: Better and better. I stopped hanging out so much with some people, started hanging out more with others, and I find myself getting out more, getting into a relationship, going back to church (even if I still don't believe what they preach, at least I'm doing something), and generally having a ball. Add to that my trip to Dallas this weekend and I've got dazzling scores across the board. Only downers I see are my projects in Calculus and English, neither of which I've got much done in. But I've pulled out of worse. So yay for things being different, finally.
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Mar. 30th, 2005 @ 08:27 pm News from Larsonia
Lemon status: Ninja Pirate-y
Funkay Beats: Wipeout Pure
Okay, today is special. It wasn't special until about 5ish or so, but it became special pretty fast. First, my mom comes home to take me and Andrew to the DMV to get various driving things. But I'm home and Andrew isn't. So we go driving around looking for him and find him, afteer a good 10 minutes of yelling from the mom, in the front yard of one of his friend's house's, chillin' with his homies. Further yelling follows. At this point I put my iPod on because I know what's gonna happen. Mom's going to yell about something, Andrew's going to yell back, and they'll just go back and forth until they run out of voice to scream with. But I did pick this interesting bit out of it: My brother is missing about 30 of his concentration pills, and has come into a large amount of money to buy pot with. So I think he's selling drugs, as well as doing them. Not a big shock, but I just think less of him.

Then we get nothing accoplished at the DMV, because we didn't bring the right stuff. So we head to Jason's Deli because life is funny and we should laugh and keep trucking. Or something corny. Anyway, at Jason's Andrew and I start some brotherly bickering and my mom keeps telling us to knock it off, so we decided she was keeping us from bonding. And then we started argueing about the book of unwritten rules and how it doesn't exist and whatnot. And something that went along the lines of "Who takes Calculus?" "Who smokes pot? Not the cool people, an dlet me tell you what, I know something about cool people." And then Andrew and my mom laughed at me, because my family sucks.

So I get home, get ready to watch "Lost in Translation", which is made by Focus so it's bound to be...interesting. And then Christina calls, Christina being a girl I like very much, and she invites me to go see the Rocky Horror Picture show with her, which is awesome, because nothing brings two people closer than a bunch of dancing, singing transvestites from Transylvania. And to top it off I'm going to a Scotish Festival with her and some friends this weekend. Normal Wednesday's are my day to be really mean to people and insult them, but I like today.
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Mar. 21st, 2005 @ 05:09 pm I'm a moron!!!
Funkay Beats: Tally Hall (Yay CD!)
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Mar. 20th, 2005 @ 09:59 pm Le Brother
Lemon status: Straight up angry
Funkay Beats: Daft Punk - Prime Time of your Life
There are time I hate my brother. This is one of them. The reason? He smokes pot and I get yelled at.

So he's been out since, what, six? Sure, six, playing basketball with his friends. Mind you, this is what he tells us, so there's little credibility to it. At nine, mom calls him and tell him to come home, it's late, yadda-yadda. ten minutes later he's here. Says "I'm gonna take a shower real quick." Goes up stairs, rolls a towel up and shoves it into the crack under the door, and procedes to light a joint. He's done this before, I'm sure, but this time the smoke made it's way down the vents and my mom got a whiff of it. The next 30-some minutes are mom yelling at him about how he's ruinning his life, wasting money that he does not have, how this is a big "fuck you" (pardon the cuss) to my mom, and how he's going to wind up like our dad. So now he's grounded for life, and, knowing my mom, will be unoffically ungrounded in a week or so.

Now, I know he smokes. Most of the people who know him know he smokes. He is the least sneaky person I know. He couldn't hide a hair from a blind, deaf, and dumb baby if he was given a military hanger full of hay. Underwater. Even if it were a ninja hair or something, that kid would find it in minutes. So I know he smokes, and I've known for sometime. But whenever I try to tell him anything, ANYTHING, he get's condesending and pissed off. Then starts yelling, and slams a door. I don't even bother asking him to take out the garbage anymore. But I'm the older brother, and I should tell him not to smoke, he's wasting his life, whatever.

So here comes my situation. I don't tell him not to smoke, and I didn't tell my mom he smokes, because I figure, "It's his life. He doesn't want my help, fine." And if this were anyone else, I would of at least tried. But I didn't, and I got yelled at. I suppose I deserved it, for not doing anything. I just wish there was some part of him that I liked.

I just mark him up as a pro for Ohio college.
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Mar. 20th, 2005 @ 12:27 am Story time
Lemon status: NEED MORE EMOTICONS
Funkay Beats: Metric - IOU
Oooooo. Story time )
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Mar. 19th, 2005 @ 12:24 pm You Defeated March 18th!
Lemon status: Older
Funkay Beats: The Faint - Symptom Finger
Gain 3037 exp

Gain 100 gold

Aaron levels up!

Aaron is level 18!

Aaron's STR goes up

Aaron's INT goes up

Aaron learned "Buy Cigarettes"

Gained Key Item: Driver's License III

Gained Item: iPod x1

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Yeah, it's my birthday. Lack luster, as in no cake and no party, but I'm still 18.

Lyric time!:

I'm gonna shut it off
Down all the power
I'm a doctor today
Curing viewers by thousands
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Mar. 13th, 2005 @ 12:28 am Sandman
Lemon status: Subpar
Funkay Beats: Mad World (Thanks Sasha)
...an he...

he...

he...

he must be dreaming.

He can feel the warm tightness of her skin; the scent of sex is heavy in the air.

Her lips taste of roses and passion, and she holds him like her life depends on it.

This is too good.

Too good to be true.

He's hitting a hundred and fifty in the lamborghini of his dreams.

Everybody's green with envy. The acceleration goes on forever.

Jesus.

He's dying for them and they love him.

He's pure and perfect and he's dying for their sins.

He can see his parents, his boss, his lovers in the crowd below him.

They're sorry now. Sorry they treated him so badly. Because he's the son.

Last son of a dead planet.

Strongest man in the world.

He can do anything.

Anything.

Absolutely anything.

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I'm gonna take a second to give props to Neil Gaiman, for being a creative genius. Next, I'm going to comtemplate the fact that dreams are visons conjured from out subconsious and they do not know good dreams from bad dreams. Right now I feel that if I go to bed, I will dread what my subconsious will show me. Therefore, I do not plan on sleeping at all tonight. Knowing myself, I'll drop dead at about 4, but hopefully I'll be to tired to dream.

Future pros: iPod, Tally Hall CD
Future cons: I'm still missing something
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Feb. 28th, 2005 @ 05:54 pm Zealots
Lemon status: Damn religons
Funkay Beats: David Gray - Sail Away
http://www.blessitt.com/crossinspace/index.html

Now, I'm far from anti-Christian. Everyone has their own personal beliefs, and that's great. I mean, I live in Texas. I'm used to seeing some hardcore Christians who don't like to see things from another angle. But launching a cross into space, so God will be above the whole world for 150 some years, watching every inch of it, is a little excessive. First, it's a smack in the face to people who don't believe that Jesus was their savior, who don't believe Jesus lived or was anything important, or who don't believe in God at all. It's like saying that our religion is best, and even if you don't believe in him, we want his symbol to float above you until you die.

And that's another thing, the cross itself. As I understand it, Jesus died on the cross. I'm not really sure if it's supposed to symbolize his sacrifice or his love for humans, or whatever. But, if there Jesus ever makes a second coming, I'm sure the last thing he wants to see is a bunch of crosses. That's like losing your legs to a bear, and then have your buddies come to the hospital dressed in bear costumes. It's just bad taste.

Also, they know it's only going to be up there for 150 years. After which, it'll fall into a decaying orbit and BURN INTO ASHES. I'm sure they'll put some positive spin on it, like "Little bits of Jesus will rain down upon you." Well, that's almost worse. Not only are they perverting our night sky but they're contaminating our air too.

More on this later.
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Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:35 pm Haiku of greatness
Lemon status: Orange
Funkay Beats: R&R Junkie

Spaceship made of cheese
These words are not made for your brain
I am potato
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Feb. 20th, 2005 @ 05:51 pm 20-something


You Are 21 Years Old



21





Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


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Feb. 15th, 2005 @ 12:10 am Quotes
Lemon status: Tired
Funkay Beats: Driving money
From a book I just finished, called "The Wee Free Men" by Terry Pratchett. It's about a world of dreams attaching itself to the real world...it's hard to explain in a sentence. Anyway, here are some quotes I thought would make sense without to much backstory.

"I mean, I've got one or two memories of being a human, of course, but what's a memory> Just a thought in you brain. You can't be sure it's real."

"...as far awa' as the other side o' a mirror."

"Maybe it was selfish to think like that, but anger was better than fear. Fear was a damp cold mess, but anger had an edge. She could use it."

"The picture was the dream, or the dream was the picture. Which way around didn't matter, because she was right in the midde of it. If you fell off a cliff, it wouldn't matter if the ground was rushing up to you or you were rushing down. You were in trouble either way."

""Nae kiddin'? Then it's a picture in the outside, and it's real on the inside. Ye ken, we've been robbin' and running aroound on all kinds o' worlds for a lang time, and I'll tell ye this: The universe is a lot more comp-li-cated than it looks from the outside."

"Perhaps believing you were already dead made you immune."

"You humans are such dreamers. You dream that you're cleaver. You dream that you're important. You're certainly imaginative."

"Is there really any me at all?"

"The sheep could survive the snow if the shepard had some wits."

"It's all dreams, anyway. And dreams within dreams. You can't rely on anything, little girl. All you can do is learn to dream."

"The secret is not to dream. The secret is to wake up. Waking up is harder. I have woken up and I am real."

"you could spend a day looking at a flower to see how wonderful it is, and that wouldn't get the milking done. No wonder we dream our way through our lives. To be awake, and see it all for what it truely is...no one could stand that for long."

"Ye are not unloved."

"Dreams can be very funny things."

"We look to...the edges. There's a lot of edges, more than people know. Between life and death, this world and the next, night and day, right and wrong...an' they need watchin'. we watch 'em, we guard the sum of things."

"You have to start small, like oak trees."
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Feb. 12th, 2005 @ 02:17 pm Social Norms
Lemon status: grrrrr
Funkay Beats: Offspring - Low Self-Esteem
Life sucks )
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Feb. 11th, 2005 @ 05:48 pm Like Humans Do
Lemon status: ...
Funkay Beats: David Byrne
For millions of years, In millions of homes
A man loved a woman, A child it was born
It learned how to hurt and it learned how to cry
Like Humans Do

I'm breathing in
I'm breathing out
So slip inside this funky house
Dishes in the sink
The TV's in repair
Don't look at the floor
Don't go up the stairs

I'm achin'
I'm shakin'
I'm breakin'
Like Humans Do

I work & I sleep & I dance & I'm dead
I'm eatin, I'm laughin & I'm lovin myself
I never watch TV except when I'm stoned
Like Humans Do

I'm breathing in
I'm breathing out
So slip inside this funky house
Dishes in the sink
The TV's in repair
Don't look at the floor
Don't go up the stairs

I'm achin'
I'm shakin'
I'm breakin'
Like Humans Do

I'm breathing in
I'm breathing out
So slip Inside this funky house
Wiggle while you work
Anybody can
The rain is pourin in on a woman & a man

I'm achin'
I'm shakin'
I'm breakin'
Like Humans Do
I'm breathing in
I'm breathing out
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Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 09:26 pm Bagel Adventures
Lemon status: Just a little insane
Funkay Beats: Benny Mardones - Into the night
Scene: I'm in my kitchen alone, making a bagel sandwich and talking to myself.

Me: "Freeze! I've got a bagel and I'm not afraid to use it. My god, it's poppy. He means business. Not only that, I've got blueberry too. Oh, the humanity! Think of the children. What..what are you doing to...oh god. That's sick!"

Andrew, who's been listening in for some time: "I hope that makes sense to you in your sick, twisted mind."

Me: "Quick, we need a bagel disarming squad down here stat. Yeah, yeah it does Andrew. Time is a factor people!" ~bites sandwich~

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My family already thinks I'm either nuts or gay. Or both. This doesn't help my case.
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Feb. 5th, 2005 @ 03:44 pm Gah
Lemon status: Urge to kill....rising
Funkay Beats: Mega Man Remixes
Well hell... )
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 10:24 pm A theory and a query
Lemon status: Philosophical
Funkay Beats: Weezer - Hey Mrs. Robinson
And I continue to update my LJ with the most innane and usless crap, making it less of a diary and more of a soap box.

Anyway, I've been bouncing this theory around for ages. Expanding, defining, and always thinking. But I never write what I have down, so I wind up forgetting what I have. That ends now.

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One of the most annoying things about humanity is the endless questioning. What, why, who, how, when. So I've developed an answer to those questions, based on questions. The most irritating thing about caring about someone, or even having friends, or knowing that someone else exists is that you have no idea what they're thinking. Are they out to get you? Do they have a secret past? Do they have feelings for you, either good or bad? Or are the genuine? Faith and trust fade to nothing more than noisy shadows after thinking for too long, and that's a bad thing.

So here's another question: What if there weren't other people? Now, bear with me, because I'm gonna sound crazy for a minute. You don't know what other people think, well, what if they don't think at all?

What if you are the center of the universe?

Told you. But think about this. I know I think. I think, therefore I am. But I don't know you think. Therefore, how do I know you exist? For the sake of demonstration, let's have three people, A, B, and C. Or Sir Charles Worthwater, Ms. Jackson, and Frankie the crack addict. Let's say we take A's point of view, and person A is the center of the universe. And when I say this, I don't mean the universe revolves around him, but rather he IS the universe. And he has two friends, B and C. From A's perspective, he knows he thinks, but has no idea whether these people do or not.

Okay, so the center of the universe knows he thinks, and doesn't know if anyone else does. Then how are they there, how can they talk to him, how do things happen. Ever seen the Matrix? I'm not saying it's some sappy crap like that, but what if you or I are simply asleep, and to keep us asleep our mind creates this universe. It creates everything from the breakfest you eat, to the people you know, to the wars you'll never see, to the planets never found. When you talk to someone, they things they say are carefully constructed by your mind to keep the illusion in place. This doesn't mean everything is on a set pattern. To keep you from getting suspicious, it places it's creations on high, and keeps you just out of reach. You hear of success, but never earn any. Your mind has created religion, government, schooling, and interaction based on what it thinks will keep you asleep. This includes the random curve ball and internal strife, and even this post. If you read this and think it's rubbish, you'll be less likely to realize reality for what it is.

So everything you know is an illusion. Or, at least part of one. It may of derived it's image from what you already know. But still. Think of this: How much of this world do you really know? And by world, I mean cosmos. Dimension. I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say close to jack squat. But back to people.

Person A, the center of the universe he is, is talking to B and C. Everything B and C are, from their looks, to their personalities, to their reactions are carefully crafted by A's mind. Of course, if B were the center, all of A's questions would be the ones forged from B's head. Even if B's never thought, or even heard about the subject, the mind will throw it in for good measure. Same with C. Everything you read is read for a reason. If I say "I know I think", you have no idea if I really thought that.

The obvious question is: How do we wake up? I don't know. I'd say death, but I'm sure there's an easier way. Something that would break down the mind's charade.

Also, I'm not saying I'm the center of the universe, although I know I think, and don't know about you. If this theory is right, however, then yes, I could be.

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Right. Just a little crazy, with some time on my hands.
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Jan. 20th, 2005 @ 07:23 pm I'm a moron!!!
Lemon status: MY EYE!
Funkay Beats: Bobby Gaylor - Suicide Song
Animals don't have a choice. If they're not happy with their place in the world, to bad. They have to live the life they've been given. Humans, on the other hand, don't have to. We have a choice. If you don't like your place in the world, you can get off any time you want. Suicide. That's right. You don't the way your life's going, you don't like the way you are in the world, anything around you, you can check out anytime you like. Animals aren't allowed that thought. And believe me, if they were, they would use it. There'd be a lot of dogs and cats, owned by assholes who live in high-rises diving out the windows. Zebras, if they had even remotely that thought would take a look at themselves and say "What the fuck. Black and white in a green and brown world. Well this blows. I think I'm gonna jump in the river. I..I..I don't have a thumb to work a gun, or hold and knife, or even open up a jar of pills. I'm just gonna dive into the next lion's mouth. Why even bother?" Now monkeys have the opposable thumb, so they could kinda do it the exact same way we do.

Now there's a bunch of people who say "Oh it's against the law." Yeah, well it's only against the law if you do a crappy job and get caught. Other people say "Oh we should save them" Yeah, well you know what? Not everybody wants to be saved. Not everybody should be saved. And who are we to force our will upon them? I mean, isn't that one of the joys about being a human? Freedom of choice?

Now it's not all bad. Now, I'm not saying "kill yourself". But if you're gonna to be an idiot and do it anyway, it's no sweat off my back. There's a lot of good that could come from it, a little bit of bad thrown in. Some of the things:

A job will open. An apartment will become available. There'll be more air for me. They say there's two girls for every guy. If you're a man, there'll be four chicks for me. There'll be more Ketel One vodka for me. There'll be one less idiot in line at the bank who gets up to the window without their fucking slips filled out. I won't ever have to go to the store to buy my favorite Salt & Vinegar Chips and have the clerk point at you and say, "They bought the last bag". You won't help change the McDonald's sign to a Hundred Billion Served. You'll never get AIDS. You won't have to worry about calories ever. No more, "Hey, does this make me look fat?" There'll be one less polluting human. You won't have to recycle. There'll be one less car on the road. There'll be more Ring Dings for me. Fifty or so chickens' lives will be spared. Your fingers won't ever get red from eating pistachios. You won't be forced to visit your grandparents on Sundays anymore. No more church. You'll be saying, "Hey world, KISS MY ASS!" No more wet dreams about supermodels. No more Barry Manilow, not for a few years anyway. Wondering, "Am I a loser?" will be a thing of the past. Say good-bye to crappy X-mas presents from aunts and uncles. You won't have to suffer through a Motley Crue reunion. Fuck flossing and brushing. You'll never lose sleep over a pregnancy scare. Adios, Acne. Worrying whether you fit in or not won't be on your brain. See ya later, homework. You'll never have to sit through another movie brought to you by the creators of South Park. Schools out forever. No more paying bills. You won't have to do chores. You won't be able to run over toads with the lawnmower though...

You'll also miss McDonald's French Fries. Bugs Bunny. The amazing electrifying feeling that surges through your body when you kiss someone for the first time. You won't be able to watch the letterbox director's cut of Jaws. Candy. Living above ground. Pudding crust. You'll miss the rush of getting your first apartment. Getting to the point in your life where you can tell your parents to "Fuck off! I gotta make my own mistakes, you did". You'll miss sex: you'll miss thinking about it, looking for it, sex by yourself, sex with a partner, sex with multiple partners. No more summer nights that seem to go on forever. Roller coasters. Naming your kid the name you always wanted. Making a difference in the world. You'll miss the experience and pleasure of Hallucinogenics. Watching your neighbor's wife change clothes with her blinds open. A lifetime of masturbating. Watching your favorite team sweep the series. Music. You will definitely miss music. Trying to sneak into your house drunk, three hours past your curfew. You'll miss the blaze and glory of the 4th of July fireworks. The taste of Captain Crunch. If you're a boy, you'll miss the feeling the first time you reach up a girl's shirt. If you're a girl, the feeling the first time you reach down a boy's pants. You'll miss your favorite coat. Waffles with whipped cream and strawberries. Beating your friends at video games. You won't be around to see what shape and color the new marshmallow in Lucky Charms will be. You'll miss the feeling you get when reminiscing about your first love, thirty years after the fact. The joy of giving and receiving at Christmas. Skinny dipping. Getting stoned, reading Green Eggs & Ham, and eating like a horse that got loose in the grain bin. Flying cars.

Hey, you were born. Finish what was started.

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Okay, before people go off thinking I posted this in some "DON'T KILL YOUSELF" manner, let me say something. I love this song. I've had it on a tape for 5 years, without knowing the name, artist, or anything. I don't live by this song, but I love it. It I had to compile a list of my 100 favorite songs, this would definitly be on there. So don't think I put this up here for you. If it applies, great. This song makes me happy everytime I hear it, and it does hold a ton of really good points. If it doesn't, fine. I still love the song.
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